That's just the way it is. My life has changed. From successful to regretful to far from a pro. Followed by nearly losing my mother, surviving brain cancer, and being so close to a friend that one error destroyed every moment of enjoyment. 

Things are changing. I will be the best river surfing engineer in the world. I will have friends instead of enemies and listen instead of speak. I will change the Klamath Falls adventure bound community while smiling and thanking the remainder of the world upon visiting them.